Hidden feelings...

How can I begin to explain?
This feeling that bonds me to you like a steel chain,
It holds me back, when you are near,
When I'm afraid, when I'm in fear.
Every night in my dreams, I feel you near me,
Are you so blind, you cannot see?
What I feel for you is so, so real,
But, should I tell you how I feel?
Why do I feel this way?
The same emotion day after day,
How could I know our friendship would turn out this way?
Am I doing the right thing by telling you how I feel?
Or when I wake-up, will this just not be real?
I'll always remember the talks we shared,
That sometimes could last all day,
When we were comfortable saying nothing,
The silence would be okay.
For you, I would gladly walk a mile,
If that would give me a chance..... to see you smile,
I'd call you my friend, but that would be a lie,
You mean more to me, but I can't explain why......
For you are more precious to me
Than all of the world's gold,
But I can't tell you that,
How can I be that bold?
If I spoke what's on my mind,
Would you accept me?
Because without you,
I don't know where I’d be.
Things you don't know, feelings I don't let show,
Secrets, hidden deep in my soul,
I would love the chance to show you what you deserve,
A chance to give you more than the whole universe.
I can't describe how much you mean to me,
For the vision is clouded so you may not see,
I don't even try to explain, how my heart longs for you,
Because I know I can't.... no matter what I do.
I don't know if I should forget it or just give it time,
I wish I could keep my heart from controlling my mind,
I know someday... I will eventually find
But only when it is right and in God's due time.
So until the day, that the spell is broken,
I must keep my love for you.... unspoken,
As I sit and watch the calm sea,
I wonder if true love between us can ever be...

- Mon, Nov 17th 2003